Im not a typical 13 year old girl, most people think im just a poser, but if they only knew what goes on in my head, the things i think, the way i look at things, trust me, i would lose my friends, my boyfriend, i would lose everything.i hate pink, i hate time, i hate effort, i hate work i hate so many more things. but i LOATHE cheerleaders and peppy people. i mean dang why are they always so excited? when i hear the preppy, "eh ma gawd" i wanna punch whoeva said it. i dont really care about much....
-The darkness begins to consume me,
i feel so alone in this world,
no matter how many people "love" me,
ill be alone forever.
im always so moody,
i have so much pain,
Ever since all my intensely painful memoris came back,
now...now i have so many un-answered questions.
questions im to afraid to ask, to scared of the answers.
everyone tries to understand...my parents? no, they try...but they fail.
they dont get it. no one does.
its hard to undersand until its happened.
i used to hear abot it happening to other people, and think, dats sad.
now i understand that the emotional pain,
its almost to much to bare sometimes.
sometimes its like its consuming every other thought you have.
its like...its like when someone says something to u that one thought has to approve it, or it just doesnt get through.
everything on the inside is starting to flow out,
like a sea of extreme black pain.
sometimes i think ill bleed black, or ill bleed all the secrets i've hid from everyone.
this blog is for everyone its happened to, everyone that feels what im feeling. noone will understand more than me. noone. people write books, its all fake, the stories might be real but the emothion behind it...the emothin is artificial.
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