please! i beg of u,
help me ease this ever lasting pain,
and by ease...i mean destroy it,
destroy me, KILL ME!!!
yea when im at skewl i joke wit Cam and Jesikaa,
but the second im behind closed doors...
oh, the second im behind closed doors,
tears fall,
knees buckle,
i fall to the floor with so many unanswerable questions,
so many un fair questions,
is it bad to wonder or...wish to kill this particular person...?
SHE is mentaly ill,
she must be,
to have done that to a 3,4,5,6? year old,
i find myself attracted to girls,
i must thank her... i must thank her for making my life so much more complicated,
as if its not hard enough dealing wit being a teemager,
now i must worry of people finding out my secret...
well i should say secretSSSS!
im lesbian, i've been mOlEsTeD...i have anger issues because of them both,
most of the tym its lyk tha weight of the world on my shoulders,
and no matter how hard i try i cant move,
no matter how strong i get i cant move it,
god? if there was a god would i have gotten a double wammy?
would my innocense have been taken not givin away?
NO! for all you people that have oh soo much faith in him...
forgget it, we have pauverty, hunger, homelessness, violence,
so much stuff dat "god" could easily stop.
if he were real [doubtful] then he is a cruel god,
no 13 year old should go through all of da stuff kids go through everyday,
lil african babies are dying because of hunger and desiese,
god should stop it...if he's out there



-well im ova my rant for now.
iight pimpin, one love <3